Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy 2006!

Nothing beats talking to The Greatest Crush of All Time on New Year's eve.

We will meet in 2006!




I'm so blissfully happy I can go prancing in a meadow full of daffodils now.


Happy 2006!

Friday, December 30, 2005

Haircut, soft toys and alcohol.

Not too long ago, I wrote about getting a haircut. Just a trim, and not the image changing one I thought about. Yes, I wanted to stick to my 6th year of Aniston. The keyword being 'wanted'. And true to my word (or something like that) I went ahead and get one.

Result? I have a horrendous haircut now. So bad that I've decided right after the entire ordeal to stay away from people I want to impress because that haircut will do me in IMMEDIATELY. Very bad.

I had the Horrible Haircut shortly after I reached home from Sydney. I thought to myself, "I'm just going to get a trim, nothing too major or radical. So a visit to my nearest hairdresser should be enough."


WRONG.



The place is quite a respectable one, apparently the swanky kind with nice interior and huge L'oreal posters everywhere. I've had my hair cut there many times and I thought it would go fine this time. I didn't know which hairdresser to ask for so I just picked this guy randomly.

Due to the utter breakdown in communication, a trim came across as "I want you to change my entire look". And because of a major oversight, which roughly translated to "It's all my fault because I was too lazy to change into my contact lenses", I couldn't see what the guy was doing because I was told to remove my specs.


In conclusion, I was as good as blind when he cut my hair.


At the end of the entire thing, when I put my specs back on, nothing could wipe the look of sheer disgust and horror off my face. I looked like 15.

I have horrid bangs now, and my long luscious locks (in my opinion) had been reduced to a much shorter crop around shoulder length. Of course my opinion about my luscious locks is biased, since I miss them and things are only BETTER when you've lost them. There's nothing worse than losing something irreplaceable. Like hair.

There's nothing that guy could have done to salvage the situation. Not even a free haircut.


And to prove how bad it is, I will tell you the things I have been through. No photos of course, since I am done feeling depressed and I don't need more people to laugh in my face.




-- a brief timeline of what happened


I was hoping and praying that by the end of the week, my hair would grow out and I wouldn't look as ridiculous as before because I had to walk out of my house, meet people, board the plane etc. Obviously it didn't and I had never been more conscious of how I looked, other than the times when I had bad skin. Which is VERY OFTEN.

I digress.


On my flight to Perth, I was seated with 2 sisters. They were 11 and 13. The flight attendant gave them each a SIA Snoopy plushie. Well, flight attendants usually hand out toys to children to 'bribe' them so they won't make a huge fuss during the flight.

I hate wailing kids, especially when I'm tired and I just want to sleep all the way during my flight. I so wanted to smack that smelly brat behind me when she wailed almost all 5 hours during my flight back.

Anyway... back to inflight toys. The flight attendant then looked at me and gave me a "Erm I'll be right back" look. She returned with a Snoopy toy for me. I was both shocked (not the good kind) and amused that she didn't return with a coloring set for me.


*Rolls eyes*


I've started a whole new thing. I have decided to drink when I take flights. And of course, by drink I mean alcohol guzzling without getting drunk. Not a good thing to be drunk of flights, since any form of swearing/air punching/slurring/threatening other passengers and other general display of drunkeness will probably get you prosecuted and maybe face a lifetime ban from said airline.

I drank my way back from Sydney, so I thought I would drink my way to Perth. I asked for my usual vodka lime, and the flight attendant (another girl) looked at me and said, "Sorry girl, may I know how old you are and may I see some form of identification please? "


Holy smoke.


I'm all of 24 and now because of a ridiculous (both financially and literally speaking) haircut, I have to produce ID to get some booze! I showed her my passport and after a "Oh my, I can't tell! I'll be back with your drink ma'am." I got my booze.


Within a span of 5 minutes, I transformed from girl to ma'am.

Not to mention some strangers (acquaintances now) thought my younger brother is OLDER than I am.


Conclusion: Appearances matter. Get a decent haircut.




Radio stations and censorship.

This is my third week home, and due to sheer boredom I've started listening to the radio again. Well officially it's my 3rd week at home, even though I spent 2nd week overseas but that's just another small detail I shall not dwell on any further.


I must say, I'm not used to it at all. By it, I mean everything but for the context of this post, I'll attribute it to radio program.


Firstly, Glenn Ong and the rest of the 98.7 crew that I'm familiar with have been "reassigned" to Class 95, a radio channel I make fun of all the time.

When I was ahem, *younger*, Class 95 used to be a sappy station, with callers calling in to spill all their deepest darkest love stories and professing their endless love to their partners/crushes.
And what better way to do that than to dedicate sappier love songs with lyrics along the lines of "i'll-never-leave-you/ I'll-love-you-till-the-end-of-time/ there's-no-greater-love".


Well I made those lyrics up. But you get the idea. *Shudder*


And songs are so bloody heavily censored here! Overheard Black Eye Peas' "Hey Mama" the other day and when the phrase "This that beat that makes you groove" came on, I went "HUH!?" in my loudest possible 'huh' voice. (My JC friends are probably used to this. Apparently I do this very often.)

It's different to the lyrics I sing to in my bathroom karaoke sessions. I went, "Not 'this that shit that makes you groove' ?"


And just now, James Blunt's "You're Beautiful" came on. "Fucking high" became "flying high".

The next thing you know, "shit" is as bad as "fuck". Waaaaait... oh you mean it is?



What gives?!



Not too sure how censorship works here anymore. I'm pretty sure if "shit" qualifies a bad word, and the authorities want to step in and remedy the profanities 'situation' in Singapore, they don't seem to be THAT successful and have a HUGE task ahead then.

The things that primary school kids say are waaaaaaaay more advanced than that. It's appalling to hear how young children speak nowadays. Swear like a sailor, and probably on the bright and smooth path towards Ultimate Bengdom.

Not that I have anything against the United Brothers of Benghood. I mean, it's pretty cool to see your GP with a huge-ass dragon tattooed on his forearm when he takes your blood pressure readings.


Oh well... maybe it's just me. I'm still not used to this place.




Sunday, December 25, 2005

Fishing trip: 5 stars fun

I just got back from my fishing trip late last night and I can't begin to tell you how tiring it was. But I have no complaints because I enjoyed myself thoroughly and frankly, I wasn't ready to board the plane yesterday.

Dampier is a very very urm.. boring place. It's a small mining town near Karratha to the north of Perth (had to take a plane there) and it is literally a desert. Hardly any tall trees and it is freaking hot. You would think it's not as hot as Singapore but believe me, it feels the same. Just less humid.





But the water off the coast of Dampier is quite amazing. The water is crystal clear and being a place where no one else on Earth goes to, there is plenty of privacy and grounds for me to do my fishing/jetskiing/banana boat activities. I've got my sunburn and the many blue-ish bruises all over me to show for it. ;)





Explored an uninhabited island. It was pretty cool... It was a small island and by small, I mean miniscule since I could easily walk from one end to the other in 20-30 minutes. There were turtle tracks all over the sand and I was told I could find turtle eggs on the island. Unfortunately I didn't find any, after much digging in the sand but it was still fun all the same.

While I was walking on the sand with Jason, we saw sea turtles swimming towards the shore. I presumed they were waiting there to lay eggs during the night or something. But it was still amazing to see sea turtles up close. They were huge!

I was experiencing a National Geographic moment. =)


I was quite bummed out about not being able to dive. But I've resolved (!!!) to pick up diving so I won't miss out on any exciting diving action in the very near future.

I hope this is not like one of my tennis endeavours. Super keen but too lazy to do squat about it. PADI, here I come!


Anyway I think I have gushed enough about my fishing trip. It's not very exciting per se, but I enjoyed every minute of it. Will write more about the hilarious things I experienced on my flight there the next time.




Sunday, December 18, 2005

Far Away.

You know how much I hate posting lyrics but since I've nothing to leave you guys with, just make do till I get back and hopefully I have some funny fishing stories to tell.

See you guys soon!


Nickelback - Far Away


This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go

Nothing to write about.

I've been home for a week now and I guess there has been a sharp decline in the number of posts since then. It's only natural to assume that I will have plenty to write about since I'm home and I have plenty of time to burn.

Even if I have plenty of time, there's absolutely nothing going on in my life that's worth writing about.

Eating, sleeping, unpacking. Repeat.


I'm going on a fishing trip later tonight. To Perth, not Sydney like I've hoped for.

Oh well.


I'll be back on Christmas so here's Merry Christmas to everyone!


Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Rating my life.

Apparently my life is borderline ok.


This Is My Life, Rated
Life:
5.5
Mind:
5.7
Body:
7
Spirit:
5
Friends/Family:
3.8
Love:
4.6
Finance:
4.8
Take the Rate My Life Quiz



Saturday, December 10, 2005

I'm home.

I'm sitting at my home now, typing this as we speak.

It's an odd feeling, the strange sense of familiarity. I know where all my things are, since nothing is changed. However, this strange sense of familiarity does not comfort me, instead it makes me choke with a huge sense of loss.

My friends. My freedom. My life.
I miss my life. My life in Sydney.


Today at the airport, I've never felt so alone and such despair. The thought of boarding the plane for home is so depressing, I swear it felt like I was crying on the inside. I hugged my friends goodbye today, smiling and saying all the usual "I'll see you soon" words.


Even when my last friend left me at the airport, when all I wanted to do was to hug him and bawl my eyes out. The fact is, I held back and just smiled.


I don't really know how to describe how I feel now. Except that I just want to be alone and cry buckets. But crying now doesn't seem to be an option, since I'm now surrounded by family who probably will not understand the immense grief.

I'm not comfortable voicing such feelings with my family. There simple is no point confiding in them, so don't tell me that "oh, your family will understand."



You have no idea how much I miss you.




I want to go back to Sydney so I won't have to cry my eyes out.






Wednesday, December 07, 2005

I don't want to go.

Right now, I don't really want to leave.

I have a good mind to call my parents to tell them I'm postponing my flight till a later date. I just want to spend Christmas at Martin Place/St Mary's Cathedral





and ring in the New Year at the Harbour Bridge.








Maybe then I'll be ready to say goodbye.


Then again, when January comes around, I'll be finding it hard to leave again.



I have spent 4 years here and though I have had my ups and downs, this is still the place I feel comfortable in. The place I'm familiar with. I can't imagine living anywhere else.

But given my circumstances and lack of personal finances, I can't stay here and I have to relocate back to a foreign country where I don't really know where I am most of the time. I can't even speak my own national language.

However all good things must come to an end. Eventually I will have to go home, whatever the reason it may be. I will have to close this chapter of my life and dive headlong into another.


Believe me, I really want things to be the way it is now.



Perhaps it's better to leave when I am not insanely crazy about Sydney.
Perhaps it's better to leave and look back with the greatest memories.


Perhaps it's better to put an end to this when we are still sane.


Monday, December 05, 2005

Packing up my life.

I hate packing up.

Right now I have to sort out all my belongings into several categories.

Things I need immediately when I get home.
Things I don't need immediately.
Things that are safe to ship back.
Things to put in my suitcases.
Things to put in my handcarry.

And which handcarry to use. The monogram bag, or my Kipling bag.

The monogram can carry quite a bit... and makes it easier for my to find my passport, boarding pass and whatnot at the airport.

Kipling bag, can be stuffed to the max and carries a bit more than the monogram. But
passport and boarding pass will be lost in the bag. Not to mention it'll make me look like the Hunchback of Notre Dame.

Of course, I don't give a flying fish at this point in time since my top priority is to ship all my belongings home.

I can't decide because I still don't know how much of my stuff will spill over and which bag will be more suitable!!


Not to mention it's Monday afternoon and I haven't found a freight company that ships to my state. Not even by sea. I have to ship my stuff by Wednesday, so basically I'm screwed. Oh fuck.


ARGH!!!!!!!



I'm a graduate!

I PASSED ALL MY PAPERS!!

I'M NOW A GRADUATE!!!!!!


YAY!!


Saturday, December 03, 2005

I PASSED MY GRAPHICS PAPER!

I KNOW THIS IS RATHER IRRELEVANT BUT..

I JUST FOUND OUT I PASSED MY COMPUTER GRAPHICS COURSE BY 1 MARK!!!








I AM OVER THE MOON AND I AM JUST BACK FROM JUMPING WITH JOY AROUND MY ROOM.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Red red shoes.

I feel like splurging on some shoes and 1 dress.

More on the dress later.

Right now... I would give almost anything for these shoes.




And the T-bar. Have always wanted a pair like these.




Red red shoes.

*Swoooooon*



Haircut and hairstyles.

I'm thinking of changing my hairstyle.

I've been having this Aniston-ish haircut for... about 5 years now and it's getting OLD.




Now that my tertiary life is over (I think), I want a change of some sort. Something for the journey ahead.

By journey, I mean interviews, getting rejected after interviews, landing a job, plus a lifetime of deskbound job etc.


I don't think I can get a short crop. The last time I did, it was school rules and I was forced against my own will and I got a boyish cut.

I looked like a mushroom.





And that pretty much ended my social life for 4 years since I refused to go out to town in the horrendous haircut.

Yeah, I was reclusive and quiet and almost went up a mountain to become a hermit.


It was the worst of times.



I remembered my aunt telling me how appearances are NOT important and people will still warm to me once they get to know me. So a mushroom haircut is not going to do any damage to my social life.



My arse.

My self confidence sank to a new low, and being monastic in my approach to life probably didn't help in my social skills. Let's just say the first year after that hell hole was filled with awkward moments. Not to mention I was trying to grow my hair out, and it was horrible.

Everyone looks at someone for the first time based solely on appearance. If the other person looks like a hobo with dirty stringy hair, you will probably walk the other way. And if the other person looks like a ridiculous mushroom, that person is probably not one of the cool kids.


That is why the choice of a haircut is very important! Well, to me at least since I do not want to spend the rest of my late 20s in seclusion they way I did in my early teens.

Right now, I have long hair. It's half way down my back and I sort of look like a ghost when I come out of the shower or wake up with messy bed hair.

But it's good since I can wear it as a ponytail and pretend to look like I can play tennis well.




I don't really know how hair length and tennis prowess relate to each other, but yeah that's the look I'm going for.


Kirsten Dunst has great short hair, but I don't know if I can do this. Seems a little too drastic.




Or maybe Charlize Theron's haircut in Aeon Flux. Looks nice.




Despite all this thought, I have a feeling I'm just going to end up with a trim and resume Aniston-ish hairstyle for Year Number 6.



Thursday, December 01, 2005

Online personas.

I don't know why the sudden depressing thoughts but today, I wonder should I die someday, what will happen to my emails and the numerous online accounts I have all over the place?

And the 'friends' I know online (by that, I mean on my MSN Messenger). None of the people I know online knows me in real life, so naturally they won't know I'm dead or something. Hmmmm...

Anyway, back to the whole emails/online accounts thing.


Should I die one day, I hope no one reads my emails or logs on to my accounts.

I am not comfortable with people going through my stuff, let alone private mails and letters. I know family and friends will "feel the need" to go through my stuff to know me better or help me settle mails/accounts/stuff.

Seriously, it's ok.


Ok, enough depressing talk for the day. It's the holidays and it should all be about booze, partying and long vacations. And yes, I have vacation(s) lined up.


Jetsetter wannabe!


p.s. Not making much sense here. Too stressed from the packing up and sale of furniture.


Guys play mind games too.

Sometimes guys say the darndest things.

They say women are the ones who play mind games, and you never know what they are talking about since everything is so cryptic. That's really the pot calling the kettle black.

It makes you wonder, just how much are you supposed to believe what guys say. One minute they are your chill buddies, and the next minute they are telling you "It has always been you".

So... you are telling me only women play mind games?

Chances are, men who tell you that only have one thing in mind. And no, it's not a relationship. More like physical relations.

And these guys, buddies who hang out with you and have no qualms cursing and swearing the foulest words, are saying that "It has always been you". Despite the numerous discussions and ranking systems you have had about how hot were the girls who just walked past. Despite their (un)healthy obsessions with celebs and FHM models.


Yeah right. It could be the weed/Valium talking.


I'm just skeptical.



Shopping and relocating.

Shopping used to be my stressbuster.

But now that I'm heading home in less than 10 days, I can't afford to go shopping. My luggage!!! I don't know how I'm going to manage but I really have loads of stuff. Clothes, shoes, useless but cute things all over my apartment.

Not to mention all my mags. I can't bear to part with them. And they are so heavy despite being so small. Bloody luggage restrictions. I still havent figure out my shipping needs yet, since I have to start sorting out things I want to keep, and things I can bear to part with.


Things I need:
1) All my clothes
2) All my shoes, except for the old Nike sneakers.
3) All my cute useless things
4) My PS2
5) My notebook (!! It's my life.)
6) My "Jeux d'Enfant" dvd.
7) All the photos on the wall.
8) Some of my mags.
9) A copy of my thesis
10) Heck, a copy of all my reports.


Things I cannot part with but must leave behind:
1) All my pjs.
2) All my novels.
3) My boardgames.
4) The rest of my dvds.
5) Some of my mags.
6) The entire collection of my postcards.
7) All my dried flowers. Victor gave them to me.
8) Some of my lotions and potions. You see, I don't need 4 kinds of body lotion.
9) All my white hangers. (Yes, I'm quite anal and I like my things to be the SAME.)


So far the list looks like this. I'm pretty sure I will find some other things to add on to my luggage. =(


Sometimes I do hate relocating.





Bastardised music.

I think I'm a very rigid person. I like things the way they are. Pure, unaltered and un-bastardised.

The same goes with music.


Seriously, I do not see the attraction of Il Divo.




Everytime the stupid advertisement comes up on tv, I just want to hurl the remote at the tv and kill the gruesome 4some.

If you want to be an opera singer, be one.
If you want to sing pop songs, sing them.

But do not mix the 2 together.


Hearing "Unbreak My Heart" - the operatic version makes my guts tie in knots, and I have to try to stop every ounce of blood from gushing out my ears with all my might.

Yes. That's how much I detest bastardised music.


Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be this hoity toity person who turns up her nose at pop music. In fact I do love all kinds of music. Jazz, rock, pop, classical and operas.

But bastardised music just doesn't cut it for me. Personally I take it as an insult to both classical and pop music lovers. Just how "Unbreak My Heart" can EVER compare to the great masters of classical music is beyond me.

The 4 dudes have great voices, I'll give them that. But really, I rather hear a rendition of "The Barber of Seville" from them than a crude remake of pop songs ANY DAY.

Don't dumb down music. Please.


Maybe it's just me.



Thursday, November 24, 2005

Final paper.

I'm still preparing for my final paper. Which happens to be discrete maths, and I'm sort of banking on Euclidean algorithm to NOT be too difficult so I can pass and go home.

Anyway this is just yet another one of my notices telling the entire world that I won't be around from tomorrow onwards... Going to Melbourne to visit my brother.

I will be back on Sunday and I will have to start packing up my life here in Sydney and ship the entire lot back home by early December. So I'm not really sure when I'll be able to post anything since I have to terminate the internet connection/phoneline/electricity before I go home.

Crap.

Life pretty much sucks at the moment. =/



Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Staple diet and quizzes.

Friday marks the end of student life for me. Of course, that is made on the assumption that I pass this semester and GRADUATE.


My staple diet.



I've never eaten that much luncheon meat in all my years.


I can't sleep, can't eat properly and the stupid numbers just will not add up. People, we are looking at a potential train wreck here.

=...(

What could be more depressing than that? Oh right, my impending doom at 8am Friday.


So I did a couple of quizzes to de-stress, but the outcomes stressed me further.




Oh yes, I'm going to be an alcoholic who feels desperate and alone inside. Who doesn't know that?!




I dislike all whiskey related beverage. Vodka only.




This is just..... I have no words for this.



Monday, November 21, 2005

Blinner, McDonald's breakfast, good coffee and silver lining.

The best thing about exam season is that your body clock is severely screwed up. You wake up when the day just about ends for EVERYONE else (about 5pm). You eat at the weirdest hour. And you invent new meals in honour of this glorious period of your youth.

Like blinner. I've had countless blinners this past 2 weeks.

Yeah blinner. Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner.
Blinner is the new brunch.

And the best thing that comes out of this mess is breakfast. Yes, something as simple as breakfast.

You see, I can't wake up for breakfast. Hell, the last time I had breakfast was sometime during the LAST exam season, which was late June.

And now, I have McDonald's Breakfast. Not just any toast and jam thing, but McDonald's breakfast.




I bought 2 servings. Hotcakes and Sausage & Egg McMuffin meal + a tall mocha. I think the McDonald's lady thought I was buying for 2. I am not eating for 2 either, just buying 2 meals at once. How else am I supposed to get Sausage & Egg McMuffin in the afternoon?

I would have walked across the road at 4am to get my breakfast if I had the guts. You see, I'm scared of the dark (e.g. vampires, bats, muggers and kidnappers etc.) and the cockroaches that come out roaming the streets at night.

But since I lack the courage, I had to wait till 6am when the sun came out before I made my way across the damn road for some wicked hotcakes.

Anyway McCafe is the next best thing to coffee from a real cafe. Nescafe is piss weak and tastes like detergent backwash. I don't know how people drink that.


Now, with my hot mocha in hand, I can see the silver lining behind the gloomy gloomy cloud of examinations.

I am finally in time for Macca's breakfast.



I am pro Intelligent Design.

I think introducing Intelligent Design to the school curriculum is a FANTASTIC idea.

Never mind the fact that the entire subject is based on something as intangible as FAITH.


"Where did homo sapien come from?"
ID answer - God.
Science - Darwin proposed the theory of evolution, which blah blah blah.


"Explain the extinction of dinosaurs."
ID answer - God.
Science - According to scientists, the earth underwent a major change in climate, which blah blah blah.


"How is water formed?"
ID answer - God.
Science - Water can be described chemically as H20, whereby hydrogen and oxygen blah blah blah.


"How does the bronchiole function?"
ID answer - As a part of God's divine plan. ("God knows" is also a valid answer)
Science - Bronchiole is a tube branching off from the bronchi that allows the exchange of gases in the lungs in and out of the bloodstream blah blah blah.


Totally awesome because you will never fail during the exams. NEVER.



p.s. Recommended learning for subservient societies who refuse to think and ALWAYS believe that faith (for e.g. in God, the politicians etc.) will take care of them.



Sunday, November 20, 2005

Stress.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

My love for vodka runs deep.

I lurve vodka.




p.s. Stay away from cheap rum. Hell, stay away from any kinda rum concoctions.


Saturday, November 19, 2005

Good weather.

The weather looks good today, and the perfect way to spend it would be going to the park, lying there and watch the clouds go by.

Or the beach. Just watching the waves crash.




I love the smell of sea.




I don't know how.

It has been 4 months since he left his family and I. I have been doing alright and life has gone on. I have my studies, and I indulge myself with all my friends here in Sydney. Somehow, it is this night that seems to bring him back to me.

It's the exam season and I can't tell you how much it sucks. My sleeping hours are screwed and I'm slowly turning alcoholic from the way I drink. Can't seem to feel the alcohol.

And it is this early morning that everything seems so wrong. It could be Ryan Adams' Wonderwall, or the fact that I found photos of us. Not much, just two. The photos were taken with a self-timer 4 years ago. And I can still remember the thoughts in my head and the dialogue we had the exact moment we took the photos.

"Are you sure you are going to make it time? You have to set the timer, get back here, pose and wait the flash to go off. I bet the photo will turn out to be one of your legs."

"Nah... it'll turn out fine."

Before we knew it, the photo was taken.
We took another photo, just in case the first one didn't turn out fine.


Guess I found out 4 years later, both the photos were rather well-taken.
Somehow this morning, I miss him more than I usually do.


"There are many things that I would like to say to you,
but I don't know how."

Yes, I don't know how. But I do miss you.




High-tech hand dryer.

I have various stuff to write about.. some serious and some as flighty as Paris Hilton. I even jot them down in my Notepad but they are not full-fledged posts. Until I make them sound logical and coherent enough, I will leave them as just "random-thoughts.txt" on my computer.

In the meantime, I shall leave you with this.



High-tech hand dryer.





Not sure if this is the norm nowadays, but a TALKING HAND DRYER ?

Somehow a machine telling me about reporting sexual assault/abuse while I'm drying my hands in the ladies, is a little... reassuring comforting weird.




Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Panic attack.

In 4 and a half hours' time, I will be sitting for my FIRST (and 2nd last) exam of my entire life.

That's if I don't take some postgrad course.

And I'm here, awake with a splitting headache and my neurotic self is making this whole thing worse.


Can't remember the last time I studied this intensively and extensively. I covered everything, unlike previous years where I skipped the chapters that I thought wouldn't come out during the exam. Of course those chapters did turn up, with the kind of luck I had.

But this time, despite somehow I feel less prepared than normal. I can feel my right arm going numb right about now.

What if I can't wake up?
What if I blank out like I always do during exams?
What if I screw it up?


And stress-induced throw-ups or AND diarrhoea. Have I mentioned that?


Oh my god oh my god oh my god.

My head hurts. My head hurts. My head hurts.


I can feel my heartbeats going all irregular now. I can't seem to breathe normally.. short shallow breaths now.

I'm freaking out.





Thursday, November 10, 2005

Notice.

People, I won't be updating this blog often from today onwards. It's not permanent, and I'm doing this because my first paper is next Wednesday and let's just say I'm only 15% prepared for it.

Yikes!


That's not to say I will stay off posting TOTALLY, because both you and I know that it's not possible. The last time I said something about not posting, I ended up posting 3-5 times on the SAME day.

I simply lack the self-control.

Maybe the thought of FAILING and NOT GRADUATING will push me harder to mug like I've never mugged before. =/


All regular, nonsensical and incessant posts discussing cerebral topics like lipgloss and shopping will resume sometime at the end of November when I'm done with exams. I will be boarding a flight to Melbourne 2 hours right after my last paper, and I'm not sure if I will bring my notebook along. We shall see how things go.

So in the meantime, read my archives/news/magazines/comics/other people's writings to keep your lovely selves entertained. Oh, and remember to keep me in your prayers because I simply cannot afford to fail during my last semester.

In your debt,
And always missing you,
Forever and ever and ever ... ,

Rach




Monday, November 07, 2005

Online persona, lame names and earrings.

I seem to have NOT posted anything on fashion/shopping/diy-related posts for the past week or 2. This is unacceptable (HAHA!!), since I'm supposed to have this airhead-money-splurging-shopping-crazy online persona.

Though people who know me in real life may disagree with this. "You do that ALL THE TIME, alright?"


2 pairs of earrings I made.




Disco Star and Casino.


Lame crazy names eh? I can't believe I've started naming my earrings.

I hope this will make do until I put together one smashing shopping post that will take your breath away. =)




Rambling.

It has been quite a while since I've posted anything.

I didn't run out of things to say. In fact, I have written quite a few posts and saved them as drafts, reserving them for other days when I am having writer's block.

Before I forget, I am thinking of removing the stupid tagboard. It seems to me that it's very adware laden and it crashes my Internet Explorer EVERYTIME I load up my blog. I don't know what I'll do with that since it's the only thing people use to leave me messages when they are too lazy to drop me an email/sms/phonecall/msn message. It's kind of like an answering machine.

Anyway......


Since last Thursday (till the weekend, at least), my life had been one huge mess. I wanted to talk about stuff, if it would help me feel better according to those new age psychology mumbo jumbo. That's why people go to a therapist. But for my case, I know that once I tell someone all the crap that has happened, my life would NOT be better.

It would be a whole new level of hell for me.


After wallowing in despair for a few days, going out during the weekend proved to be a blast and a great help. It was my birthday, so there was a dinner and quite a lot of booze. Booze definitely helped. I wasn't drunk or high, but it made things seem "watered down" and maybe the whole incident wasn't such a big deal after all. Well, at least for that brief period of time.


I have taken quite a few pictures but they are all on Jaclyn's camera so I don't know when I'll get them. =/

It's Monday, and I'm all of 24 years old (and 2 days). I'm healthy, sane and a well-adjusted individual who's about to take the last exam of her life and graduate.

Well... I'm pretty sure I'm healthy. I haven't been to a doctor for ages and I have no medical checkups whatsoever to back this up. But the fact that I haven't stepped into a clinic for 6 months goes to show a lot.

And since I'm going home in 1 month's time, I have to give a written notice to my housing agent regarding this. Not to mention the fact that I have to start drawing up a list of things to sell, things to give away and arrange shipping for the rest of my belongings.

All this during my exam period.


So yeah. Life is treating me quite alright.






Dvds.

Ever since I was DONE with this semester's assignments and tests, I have indulged myself in plenty of movies and dvds. And by plenty, I mean 9 in total.

Well, I've covered the movies in a previous post, so 6 dvds remain.


Some of them are pretty good, while some were just pure B-grade (or ever lower) trash that were just a pure waste of time.

I know Spawn is a decent comic, but on the big screen, it reeked. Don't ever rent it just to see how Spawn looks on tv. It's not good. It's so bad you barf everytime the stupid dialogue/effects come on screen. And that make it, well, every other minute.


Ae Fond Kiss.



This is one movie you can afford to miss. I rented it because inter-racial relationships are often interesting to watch. Culture clash, family pressure and the odd looks on the street. The whole lot.

If I want a gripping movie about inter-racial relationships, this movie will not be it. The background of each character actually makes an interesting match. The only son from an immigrant Pakistani family, falling in love with a Caucasian divorcee who teaches music at his kid sister's school.

I know most people would say society is more accepting of interracial relationships now. But until it happens to their family, where you have to witness one of your clan to convert to another religion, we'll never know how difficult it can be.

Well the movie could have been better. =/



Before Sunrise.



I watched "Before Sunset", which is sort of a sequel, before this. Strangely, I like Before Sunset better. It's somewhat sadder, like the feeling you have when you know of a promise between 2 person that wasn't fulfilled.

It's like thinking of the girl/boy you loved when you were 18. Now that you are in your 20s, you wonder if the other person is happier, and whether they miss you the way you miss them.

A movie that reminds you of all the what-ifs and the pain of it all.

Before Sunrise doesn't have this effect on me.


Devil's Advocate.



I only rented this because Keanu Reeves was in it. Plus, I've heard some great reviews on this movie and I wasn't disappointed. The plot is very predictable, but it's still entertaining.

Al Pacino makes a great devil. I love the way he snarls. And you know what they say about "a leopard never changes its spots" ?

It's true.


The Last Emperor.



I was walking along the "Academy" aisle when I picked this up. Was actually looking for "The English Patient" but it was out. =/

Peter O'Toole was in the movie, playing the emperor's home tutor/teacher. And I'm not sure how true-to-life this movie is, but the sets and costumes were amazing. They filmed inside the Forbidden City and the place is just fascinating.


Halfway through the movie, I realised that O'Toole actually looks a little like Willem Dafoe.



Not sure if you see the resemblance, but they look like father and son. At least, you'll know what Dafoe looks like when he's 70.

And John Lone looks swoonsome.



Amadeus.







Picked up Amadeus as well. It's the story about Mozart's life from the view of his rival, Salieri. Apparently this movie won 8 Academy Awards. It's entertaining, but unlike "The Last Emperor" or "Silence of the Lambs", I don't see how this movie could have won 8 awards.

I mean, some other award winning movies have this effect on people. Once you've watched it, you know why it won top awards. Or rather, you KNOW deep down it's going to win big time at the Academy Awards. It could be the plot, the groundbreaking performance etc. But Amadeus? It just strikes me as another period movie. With lush sets and costumes.

I don't know... but I do like the poster.





Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Movies.

I've watched 3 movies ever since all my deadlines were over. 3 movies at the cinema, not including all the dvds I've forced myself to sit through.

The 40 Year Old Virgin.




Night Watch.




The Exorcism of Emily Rose.





Well, now I know men last only 1 minute in bed, Russian vampires are governed by this group who call themselves Night Watch, and a person can be possessed by more than 1 demon (the girl had 6).




Winnings!

ADRIAN,

ALL YOUR WINNINGS ARE BELONG TO ME!







Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Melbourne Cup, raceday and dressing up.

Well I know nothing about horse racing, but I do know that it's a HUGE event here in Australia. Being spring and all that, there are races. It's very much like THE social event of spring, people dress up to attend the races.


Even Google dressed up.







As much as it is about watching prized mare racing to the end within that few important minutes, it's also people watching that makes this event interesting.


I know nothing about horses, except that they smell bad. And that's coming from experience since I'm almost staying next to the racecourse.



Well at least I know the winning horse is called Makybe Diva.



I know it says MELBOURNE Cup, but really, people in Sydney still dress up and attend the race here in Sydney. Even when there are no horses running about on the track. They just watch it 'live' on tv at the racecourse.

And people are seriously thinking about declaring it a public holiday since no one is working anyway. Everyone is at the race, even if they produce a medical certificate. Their bosses know where to find them.


This year, Eva Longoria and Carson Kressley are at the race.




Carson doing his thing.




Carson and Anthony Callea.




Well I do also know that racedays bring in huge earnings for the state. Wining and dining, fashion, hotels, bettings etc. All these bring in the money for the hosting state.

"Millions of Australians will join in today's festivities, which are expected to contribute more than $300-million to the Victorian economy.

Makybe Diva alone is expected to attract more than $25-million from the punters."


--Reporter: Karen Percy
Tuesday, 1 November , 2005 08:04:00

http://www.abc.net.au/am/content/2005/s1494985.htm


Did I just see $300 MILLION?!


And I think all the boutiques/designers are smiling all the way to the bank.

"Women in Victoria alone bought more than 43,000 hats, more than 30,000 pairs of shoes, more than 26,000 handbags, 16,500 jewellery items and about 14,000 pairs of sunglasses.

Men in Victoria bought more than 14,000 ties, more than 12,000 pairs of shoes and about 5,500 hats. "


-- Cup fashion gets back to old favourites
October 27, 2005 - 12:54PM
[link]


You see, it's a big thing.





There's even a competition for the best-dressed.

Some look pretty.





While some look fiery.




With a dash of goth thrown in.




And some just looks like... Kiss. Which is pretty funny.





I'll miss all this fun when I go home at the end of the year. People just don't dress like this back home. =(





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