Thursday, November 24, 2005

Final paper.

I'm still preparing for my final paper. Which happens to be discrete maths, and I'm sort of banking on Euclidean algorithm to NOT be too difficult so I can pass and go home.

Anyway this is just yet another one of my notices telling the entire world that I won't be around from tomorrow onwards... Going to Melbourne to visit my brother.

I will be back on Sunday and I will have to start packing up my life here in Sydney and ship the entire lot back home by early December. So I'm not really sure when I'll be able to post anything since I have to terminate the internet connection/phoneline/electricity before I go home.


Life pretty much sucks at the moment. =/

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Staple diet and quizzes.

Friday marks the end of student life for me. Of course, that is made on the assumption that I pass this semester and GRADUATE.

My staple diet.

I've never eaten that much luncheon meat in all my years.

I can't sleep, can't eat properly and the stupid numbers just will not add up. People, we are looking at a potential train wreck here.


What could be more depressing than that? Oh right, my impending doom at 8am Friday.

So I did a couple of quizzes to de-stress, but the outcomes stressed me further.

Oh yes, I'm going to be an alcoholic who feels desperate and alone inside. Who doesn't know that?!

I dislike all whiskey related beverage. Vodka only.

This is just..... I have no words for this.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Blinner, McDonald's breakfast, good coffee and silver lining.

The best thing about exam season is that your body clock is severely screwed up. You wake up when the day just about ends for EVERYONE else (about 5pm). You eat at the weirdest hour. And you invent new meals in honour of this glorious period of your youth.

Like blinner. I've had countless blinners this past 2 weeks.

Yeah blinner. Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner.
Blinner is the new brunch.

And the best thing that comes out of this mess is breakfast. Yes, something as simple as breakfast.

You see, I can't wake up for breakfast. Hell, the last time I had breakfast was sometime during the LAST exam season, which was late June.

And now, I have McDonald's Breakfast. Not just any toast and jam thing, but McDonald's breakfast.

I bought 2 servings. Hotcakes and Sausage & Egg McMuffin meal + a tall mocha. I think the McDonald's lady thought I was buying for 2. I am not eating for 2 either, just buying 2 meals at once. How else am I supposed to get Sausage & Egg McMuffin in the afternoon?

I would have walked across the road at 4am to get my breakfast if I had the guts. You see, I'm scared of the dark (e.g. vampires, bats, muggers and kidnappers etc.) and the cockroaches that come out roaming the streets at night.

But since I lack the courage, I had to wait till 6am when the sun came out before I made my way across the damn road for some wicked hotcakes.

Anyway McCafe is the next best thing to coffee from a real cafe. Nescafe is piss weak and tastes like detergent backwash. I don't know how people drink that.

Now, with my hot mocha in hand, I can see the silver lining behind the gloomy gloomy cloud of examinations.

I am finally in time for Macca's breakfast.

I am pro Intelligent Design.

I think introducing Intelligent Design to the school curriculum is a FANTASTIC idea.

Never mind the fact that the entire subject is based on something as intangible as FAITH.

"Where did homo sapien come from?"
ID answer - God.
Science - Darwin proposed the theory of evolution, which blah blah blah.

"Explain the extinction of dinosaurs."
ID answer - God.
Science - According to scientists, the earth underwent a major change in climate, which blah blah blah.

"How is water formed?"
ID answer - God.
Science - Water can be described chemically as H20, whereby hydrogen and oxygen blah blah blah.

"How does the bronchiole function?"
ID answer - As a part of God's divine plan. ("God knows" is also a valid answer)
Science - Bronchiole is a tube branching off from the bronchi that allows the exchange of gases in the lungs in and out of the bloodstream blah blah blah.

Totally awesome because you will never fail during the exams. NEVER.

p.s. Recommended learning for subservient societies who refuse to think and ALWAYS believe that faith (for e.g. in God, the politicians etc.) will take care of them.

Sunday, November 20, 2005


All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

My love for vodka runs deep.

I lurve vodka.

p.s. Stay away from cheap rum. Hell, stay away from any kinda rum concoctions.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Good weather.

The weather looks good today, and the perfect way to spend it would be going to the park, lying there and watch the clouds go by.

Or the beach. Just watching the waves crash.

I love the smell of sea.

I don't know how.

It has been 4 months since he left his family and I. I have been doing alright and life has gone on. I have my studies, and I indulge myself with all my friends here in Sydney. Somehow, it is this night that seems to bring him back to me.

It's the exam season and I can't tell you how much it sucks. My sleeping hours are screwed and I'm slowly turning alcoholic from the way I drink. Can't seem to feel the alcohol.

And it is this early morning that everything seems so wrong. It could be Ryan Adams' Wonderwall, or the fact that I found photos of us. Not much, just two. The photos were taken with a self-timer 4 years ago. And I can still remember the thoughts in my head and the dialogue we had the exact moment we took the photos.

"Are you sure you are going to make it time? You have to set the timer, get back here, pose and wait the flash to go off. I bet the photo will turn out to be one of your legs."

"Nah... it'll turn out fine."

Before we knew it, the photo was taken.
We took another photo, just in case the first one didn't turn out fine.

Guess I found out 4 years later, both the photos were rather well-taken.
Somehow this morning, I miss him more than I usually do.

"There are many things that I would like to say to you,
but I don't know how."

Yes, I don't know how. But I do miss you.

High-tech hand dryer.

I have various stuff to write about.. some serious and some as flighty as Paris Hilton. I even jot them down in my Notepad but they are not full-fledged posts. Until I make them sound logical and coherent enough, I will leave them as just "random-thoughts.txt" on my computer.

In the meantime, I shall leave you with this.

High-tech hand dryer.

Not sure if this is the norm nowadays, but a TALKING HAND DRYER ?

Somehow a machine telling me about reporting sexual assault/abuse while I'm drying my hands in the ladies, is a little... reassuring comforting weird.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Panic attack.

In 4 and a half hours' time, I will be sitting for my FIRST (and 2nd last) exam of my entire life.

That's if I don't take some postgrad course.

And I'm here, awake with a splitting headache and my neurotic self is making this whole thing worse.

Can't remember the last time I studied this intensively and extensively. I covered everything, unlike previous years where I skipped the chapters that I thought wouldn't come out during the exam. Of course those chapters did turn up, with the kind of luck I had.

But this time, despite somehow I feel less prepared than normal. I can feel my right arm going numb right about now.

What if I can't wake up?
What if I blank out like I always do during exams?
What if I screw it up?

And stress-induced throw-ups or AND diarrhoea. Have I mentioned that?

Oh my god oh my god oh my god.

My head hurts. My head hurts. My head hurts.

I can feel my heartbeats going all irregular now. I can't seem to breathe normally.. short shallow breaths now.

I'm freaking out.

Thursday, November 10, 2005


People, I won't be updating this blog often from today onwards. It's not permanent, and I'm doing this because my first paper is next Wednesday and let's just say I'm only 15% prepared for it.


That's not to say I will stay off posting TOTALLY, because both you and I know that it's not possible. The last time I said something about not posting, I ended up posting 3-5 times on the SAME day.

I simply lack the self-control.

Maybe the thought of FAILING and NOT GRADUATING will push me harder to mug like I've never mugged before. =/

All regular, nonsensical and incessant posts discussing cerebral topics like lipgloss and shopping will resume sometime at the end of November when I'm done with exams. I will be boarding a flight to Melbourne 2 hours right after my last paper, and I'm not sure if I will bring my notebook along. We shall see how things go.

So in the meantime, read my archives/news/magazines/comics/other people's writings to keep your lovely selves entertained. Oh, and remember to keep me in your prayers because I simply cannot afford to fail during my last semester.

In your debt,
And always missing you,
Forever and ever and ever ... ,


Monday, November 07, 2005

Online persona, lame names and earrings.

I seem to have NOT posted anything on fashion/shopping/diy-related posts for the past week or 2. This is unacceptable (HAHA!!), since I'm supposed to have this airhead-money-splurging-shopping-crazy online persona.

Though people who know me in real life may disagree with this. "You do that ALL THE TIME, alright?"

2 pairs of earrings I made.

Disco Star and Casino.

Lame crazy names eh? I can't believe I've started naming my earrings.

I hope this will make do until I put together one smashing shopping post that will take your breath away. =)


It has been quite a while since I've posted anything.

I didn't run out of things to say. In fact, I have written quite a few posts and saved them as drafts, reserving them for other days when I am having writer's block.

Before I forget, I am thinking of removing the stupid tagboard. It seems to me that it's very adware laden and it crashes my Internet Explorer EVERYTIME I load up my blog. I don't know what I'll do with that since it's the only thing people use to leave me messages when they are too lazy to drop me an email/sms/phonecall/msn message. It's kind of like an answering machine.


Since last Thursday (till the weekend, at least), my life had been one huge mess. I wanted to talk about stuff, if it would help me feel better according to those new age psychology mumbo jumbo. That's why people go to a therapist. But for my case, I know that once I tell someone all the crap that has happened, my life would NOT be better.

It would be a whole new level of hell for me.

After wallowing in despair for a few days, going out during the weekend proved to be a blast and a great help. It was my birthday, so there was a dinner and quite a lot of booze. Booze definitely helped. I wasn't drunk or high, but it made things seem "watered down" and maybe the whole incident wasn't such a big deal after all. Well, at least for that brief period of time.

I have taken quite a few pictures but they are all on Jaclyn's camera so I don't know when I'll get them. =/

It's Monday, and I'm all of 24 years old (and 2 days). I'm healthy, sane and a well-adjusted individual who's about to take the last exam of her life and graduate.

Well... I'm pretty sure I'm healthy. I haven't been to a doctor for ages and I have no medical checkups whatsoever to back this up. But the fact that I haven't stepped into a clinic for 6 months goes to show a lot.

And since I'm going home in 1 month's time, I have to give a written notice to my housing agent regarding this. Not to mention the fact that I have to start drawing up a list of things to sell, things to give away and arrange shipping for the rest of my belongings.

All this during my exam period.

So yeah. Life is treating me quite alright.


Ever since I was DONE with this semester's assignments and tests, I have indulged myself in plenty of movies and dvds. And by plenty, I mean 9 in total.

Well, I've covered the movies in a previous post, so 6 dvds remain.

Some of them are pretty good, while some were just pure B-grade (or ever lower) trash that were just a pure waste of time.

I know Spawn is a decent comic, but on the big screen, it reeked. Don't ever rent it just to see how Spawn looks on tv. It's not good. It's so bad you barf everytime the stupid dialogue/effects come on screen. And that make it, well, every other minute.

Ae Fond Kiss.

This is one movie you can afford to miss. I rented it because inter-racial relationships are often interesting to watch. Culture clash, family pressure and the odd looks on the street. The whole lot.

If I want a gripping movie about inter-racial relationships, this movie will not be it. The background of each character actually makes an interesting match. The only son from an immigrant Pakistani family, falling in love with a Caucasian divorcee who teaches music at his kid sister's school.

I know most people would say society is more accepting of interracial relationships now. But until it happens to their family, where you have to witness one of your clan to convert to another religion, we'll never know how difficult it can be.

Well the movie could have been better. =/

Before Sunrise.

I watched "Before Sunset", which is sort of a sequel, before this. Strangely, I like Before Sunset better. It's somewhat sadder, like the feeling you have when you know of a promise between 2 person that wasn't fulfilled.

It's like thinking of the girl/boy you loved when you were 18. Now that you are in your 20s, you wonder if the other person is happier, and whether they miss you the way you miss them.

A movie that reminds you of all the what-ifs and the pain of it all.

Before Sunrise doesn't have this effect on me.

Devil's Advocate.

I only rented this because Keanu Reeves was in it. Plus, I've heard some great reviews on this movie and I wasn't disappointed. The plot is very predictable, but it's still entertaining.

Al Pacino makes a great devil. I love the way he snarls. And you know what they say about "a leopard never changes its spots" ?

It's true.

The Last Emperor.

I was walking along the "Academy" aisle when I picked this up. Was actually looking for "The English Patient" but it was out. =/

Peter O'Toole was in the movie, playing the emperor's home tutor/teacher. And I'm not sure how true-to-life this movie is, but the sets and costumes were amazing. They filmed inside the Forbidden City and the place is just fascinating.

Halfway through the movie, I realised that O'Toole actually looks a little like Willem Dafoe.

Not sure if you see the resemblance, but they look like father and son. At least, you'll know what Dafoe looks like when he's 70.

And John Lone looks swoonsome.


Picked up Amadeus as well. It's the story about Mozart's life from the view of his rival, Salieri. Apparently this movie won 8 Academy Awards. It's entertaining, but unlike "The Last Emperor" or "Silence of the Lambs", I don't see how this movie could have won 8 awards.

I mean, some other award winning movies have this effect on people. Once you've watched it, you know why it won top awards. Or rather, you KNOW deep down it's going to win big time at the Academy Awards. It could be the plot, the groundbreaking performance etc. But Amadeus? It just strikes me as another period movie. With lush sets and costumes.

I don't know... but I do like the poster.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005


I've watched 3 movies ever since all my deadlines were over. 3 movies at the cinema, not including all the dvds I've forced myself to sit through.

The 40 Year Old Virgin.

Night Watch.

The Exorcism of Emily Rose.

Well, now I know men last only 1 minute in bed, Russian vampires are governed by this group who call themselves Night Watch, and a person can be possessed by more than 1 demon (the girl had 6).




Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Melbourne Cup, raceday and dressing up.

Well I know nothing about horse racing, but I do know that it's a HUGE event here in Australia. Being spring and all that, there are races. It's very much like THE social event of spring, people dress up to attend the races.

Even Google dressed up.

As much as it is about watching prized mare racing to the end within that few important minutes, it's also people watching that makes this event interesting.

I know nothing about horses, except that they smell bad. And that's coming from experience since I'm almost staying next to the racecourse.

Well at least I know the winning horse is called Makybe Diva.

I know it says MELBOURNE Cup, but really, people in Sydney still dress up and attend the race here in Sydney. Even when there are no horses running about on the track. They just watch it 'live' on tv at the racecourse.

And people are seriously thinking about declaring it a public holiday since no one is working anyway. Everyone is at the race, even if they produce a medical certificate. Their bosses know where to find them.

This year, Eva Longoria and Carson Kressley are at the race.

Carson doing his thing.

Carson and Anthony Callea.

Well I do also know that racedays bring in huge earnings for the state. Wining and dining, fashion, hotels, bettings etc. All these bring in the money for the hosting state.

"Millions of Australians will join in today's festivities, which are expected to contribute more than $300-million to the Victorian economy.

Makybe Diva alone is expected to attract more than $25-million from the punters."

--Reporter: Karen Percy
Tuesday, 1 November , 2005 08:04:00

Did I just see $300 MILLION?!

And I think all the boutiques/designers are smiling all the way to the bank.

"Women in Victoria alone bought more than 43,000 hats, more than 30,000 pairs of shoes, more than 26,000 handbags, 16,500 jewellery items and about 14,000 pairs of sunglasses.

Men in Victoria bought more than 14,000 ties, more than 12,000 pairs of shoes and about 5,500 hats. "

-- Cup fashion gets back to old favourites
October 27, 2005 - 12:54PM

You see, it's a big thing.

There's even a competition for the best-dressed.

Some look pretty.

While some look fiery.

With a dash of goth thrown in.

And some just looks like... Kiss. Which is pretty funny.

I'll miss all this fun when I go home at the end of the year. People just don't dress like this back home. =(

Birthday card.

Got a birthday card from the Boy today.

Put a smile on my face. =)

Google and Halloween.

It was Halloween yesterday and Google dressed up!

Just a random post on Halloween. =)

Lowenbrau, mango beer and daylight saving.

After spending the better part of Friday & Saturday morning at Lowenbrau, I'm hooked again on mango beer.

The combination sounds odd, but it's the only beer I'll drink without protest.

This glass of beer looks innocent, but it's actually half a litre per glass. So I've had a litre of beer to drink before the rest of the shots began.

Well done.

Overall the weekend was great. Didn't get sloshed but I got my fix. =)

The plan is to go to Lowenbrau this Saturday for dinner.

After browsing part of the menu online, I can't wait.

The entire weekend passed by so quickly, I swear it feels like the entire weekend was compacted into one day, and it's only Sunday now. In fact, it's nearly the end of Tuesday.

My hours are a little screwed.

Not to mention daylight saving started on Sunday. Daylight saving is a bitch. When I thought it was 12am on Sunday, Jo told me daylight savings had started. So instead of being 12 am like it SHOULD be, it was actually 1am.

I have been robbed of an hour!

It's 3pm now and I feel like it's actually 2pm. It has screwed up my sleeping hours, my mealtimes and my life in general. I'm not the kind of person who lives by a schedule, and the damn clock doesn't rule my life. But this stupid daylight thing has pretty much messed up everything.

For example, I roll out of bed at 10am, but deep down I KNOW it's actually 9am if not for the stupid daylight saving crap. So I continue to hide under my comfy duvet until all the hours pass me by. And therefore causing me to miss my class/appointments or be late.

And when mealtimes come, I will eat at 4pm (3pm in my head) and dinner will probably start at 9pm (8pm in my head). And because it's 9pm, most places are closed and I'll be stuck with only all the "wholesome goodies" MacDonald's can offer.

I'll eventually crawl back to bed at 3am (2am in my head), and repeat this glorious cycle again.

I feel so robbed.

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