Monday, December 12, 2011

Dermatologists, laser, creams, gels and pills.

Bad skin throughout my life. I wanted to say teens but I guess in my 20s (gasp!!) my skin was ok, calm but not perfect and dewy and all that it should be. Now it's horrible. I have cystic acne all along my jaw and they are spreading upwards onto my cheek

Dermatologists, laser, creams, gels and pills. My skin calmed down and there was no flareup during my wedding and 2 years after until now. I wonder if it's the constant challenges I put my skin through.

New cleaning regimen like oil cleansing to remove makeup.
BB Cream.
Makeup and colors

and now I'm paying the price for it. I am zapping my face with lasers weekly and it's still bumpy and riddled with humongous angry acne. I dont' know what to do. I'm even back on Roaccutane.

With Roaccutane, patients sometimes experience depression, suicidal thoughts and of course dry skin (it's pretty much a given).

I wonder if the depression comes from the pill or the thought "why the eff is this happening to me?"

I take care of my skin, I eat well and I try to go to bed as early as I can. There's nothing much I can do about my stress levels because I work in audit and life is pretty much about deadlines, especially during the year end. I really don't know how to make my skin better.

this is a lifelong battle. for now, I'm not throwing in the towel just yet. Rawr.

End of rant.

I am sick like a wounded puppy.

I'm down with a bad cold and I never thought death sounded such a good idea till now.

-- That's a meal in itself right there. 3 times a day.

So what did I do when I'm sick, face riddled with gigantic cystic acne, home alone with no food in the fridge? I made the decision to see the dermatologist. Yup, that says a lot about the priorities in my life.

High after getting my face zapped by laser (much on my skin battle later), I went to the food hall at the basement to stock up on food. Much like the hunter that I was, I bought lots of bread and a gourmet sandwich (italian sausage, rocket and fig jam. Yum I know.) which I probably wouldn't be able to enjoy.

Then I thought, I'm already sick I can't taste anything but the bitterness the meds left in my mouth, I might as well buy something fabulous and hopefully taste something to make this craptacular day better. The hell with plain porridge and chicken soup for the sick and cold stricken soul. 

I needed something awesome, like a hot bowl of mushroom soup with truffles or something. Surely I CAN taste truffle oil even when I'm ill right?

I really don't think I should go food shopping by myself when I'm delirious with fever. I make less sense than I usually do.

So how was your Monday so far?

Much love from your sniffly friend who can't breathe.

Tom Ford - Things I Love

I know this is super duper late but I *heart* Tom Ford's makeup line. Have you seen the ads?

The brushes! The nails! The sheer luxurious packaging screams "BUY ME OR REGRET"!!

Alas (always wanted to pepper my sentences with this one. Never seen it in use since 15th century or outside of fairy tales). This is not to be. The Tom Ford line is NOT available in island state.

On the bright side, I have time to save when it does get here!


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